I tried to ask you for help
But I couldn't find the words
I knew that I was falling
And I knew that I would die
But it seemed weird, and it seemed selfish
So I smiled and chose to lie
Well, I didn't really lie
I just never told you
And that was fine
You had other things to talk about
So we talked for a while
Think I made you smile
But I was running out of time
I still wanted to tell you
I still knew I needed help
But I didn't want to say it
Well
I didn't know what to say
I hoped that you might see it
That you would ask if I'm okay
But you didn't
But I don't blame you
It's not your job to know
You aren't my keeper
To burden with my woes
Maybe if I knew
How to say it
But it would be awkward
You shouldn't worry
I shouldn't tell you
I'd look like a poser anyway
Maybe I am
Yeah
Nothing's wrong
It's all in my head
Well, it probably is
But that's really no excuse
For seeing myself dead
